25. Januar 2004, 23:59

About loneliness

When I was a little boy, I always said I never will anything to do with girls or even want to become married. My parents always laughed on it and assured me, this will change for certain in the future. Well, I was right with it to some extent till the present day, but I am absolutely not happy about it. I wished I had been wrong!

Everyone who says he better wants to live alone, doesn't know what this really means, in my opinion. Real loneliness! He doesn't know how sad it is to wake up alone, to eat alone, to go out alone, to fall asleep alone...every day!

In my opinion human beings are not created to be alone. You need someone to share your life with. Someone who is listening to your problems and who you can listening to his problems. Who you can discuss with, argue and laugh with.

Long time I have really thought that I don't need anybody. I was satisfied with my life as I lived it. There are, of course, some advantages to live alone - no doubt! You are free to do and not to do what you want. You don't have to ask, wait for or care about anyone else. But this kind of freedom can become boring at some day - even that, you might miss someday.

And I don't mean you need someone for sexual reasons at the first place. This would be just an addition, but not in the least the most important thing. I have been rather satisfied with my "handjob" so far and I still am. As Woody Allen said in one of his movies: "Masturbation is making love with the person I love most." ;-) But what about to feel her lips on yours, to carress her hips tenderly with your fingertips, to breathe the smell of her hair? That only can be paradise! I cannot imagine that someone can live or survive without it.

I think, to reach real hapiness in life you have to have a partner, who you can share your hapiness with! Without a beloved partner life is just as half as good, as half as worth living it!