27. Dezember 2003, 22:47

A Christmas winter tale

At Christmas Eve I go as usual on a walk through the dark and silent streets of Berlin. I like to stroll through the empty streets at that time. Everything is so silent and peaceful. Just some single people can be seen and rarely a car disturbs with its noise the peaceful silence at those hours.

This time it is rather cold, a little icey wind cuts my ears, my cheeks, my face. A clear and open sky lets see all the lonely, far stars.

I can see the many bright-lighted windows, sometimes with the candles of a Christmas tree. What might now happen behind these windows? - Happy eyes of children waiting for Santa Clause and his presents? Some anger between father and mother because the Christmas meal has not properly prepared? A crying boy because he has got a wooden car instead of the wished game console? Or just a tender, deep kiss between a couple in full happiness and satisfaction?

While thinking of all this, it suddenly begins to snow. Thick snowflakes silently fall from the now dark and cloudy sky. Not the slightest wind can be felt in my face. Immediately all the streets, roofs, cars and pavements are full of white. Snowflakes on my cheeks become little, clear waterdrops.

I can see a student disguised as Santa Clause in a red robe, who now tries almost desperately to park on the now snowy street his little car. Not very loud a little grumbling and complaining from him can be heard. With amusement I watch that Santa Clause and his tries to park his car until he disappears behind one of the several house doors.

Now I notice, that I am standing in front of a church. I can recognize a little shiny light through the big, huge church windows. Suddenly a choir begins, not very loud, to sing Christmas songs. I am standing there for a while, listening to the singing from inside while the snow is continuing falling silently from above. Everything seems to be so peaceful, in full harmony now.

I don't know why, but something let me turn my head over the street...

What is there? There stands a girl surrounded by a sort of glooming, but apparently no one else seems to see that except me. The girl just stands there, always looking right into my eyes. And I do so either. I cannot stop looking right into her eyes. After some minutes watching each into the others' eyes I am approaching to her - eye to eye. Now I stand right in front of her and I cannot hide to be astonished about such beauty. Is she an angel? That curly red-brown hair, those clear blue-grey eyes, those full cheeks, that cute nose and that tremendous bright smile formed of lips in a color called "Rose Lolita". Without speaking any word we stand now face to face. Freshly and open-hearted smiling she shows with her finger on her forehead. I give her a soft kiss, where she has shown. Then she shows on her cheek and I kiss her tenderly there, too. I can hear my blood pumping through my ears. Her smile becomes even bigger and now she shows to her full red lips. I begin to kiss her there very long and deeply and while kissing eachother she hugs me and I hug her. I feel, how I lose the ground beneath my feet, we are flying arm in arm, deeply covered. A feeling of deep, pure warmth and happiness rushes through all my body.

26. Dezember 2003, 22:50

I am at my parents in my old hometown!

The entire family has (unfortunately) gathered, but all is rather as boring as expected. All day only waiting for the next meal! So, a lot of eating here and between the meals some little talking, some little playing - nothing spectacular.

And after this? - Again a new meal! Ufff...!

At Christmas I have got an Audio-CD ("Greendale" by Neil Young) and some DVDs and some sweets, too, of course. Actually, I have abolished for myself all that present-stuff, because it has always been just a lot of stress to get all the presents and at Christmas' Eve there has always been just a lot of disappointment and trouble, because it hasn't ever been, of course, the correct presents. Therefore Christmas always ended in anger and that hasn't to be necessary. Better not to buy the wrong presents, so no problems and trouble with it and additionaly you save some money.

Just the pure pleasure to see and meet the other ones for Christmas. And this is how Christmas actually has been "made" for, in my humble opinion!

25. Dezember 2003, 11:10

I missed my train! :-(

For only 3 minutes!!!

Well, I will have a next try in half an hour. I hadn't to get up so early! :'-( By the way, you haven't begun your work today right on time... ;-)

24. Dezember 2003, 18:49

Merry christmas!

First sorry that I haven't written anything here the recent days, but I am a natural born "postponer". Anything what can be done also tomorrow will also be done tomorrow, is postponed. Maybe, this is one of my biggest mistakes...

Yesterday I had to go into the biggest christmas-shopping madness, although I actually tried to avoid this. But I have promissed something to someone...

At the evening I was chatting with "Kitty" again. It was, unfortunately, a goodbye-chat, because she probably won't be online there anymore. Pity! I was enjoying to talk to her. I don't know, what had happened, if I had met her before "K."... (lol)

This morning I woke up late again. These days are days of watching many movies on TV, but they are shown often very late at night. And because it is cold in my room, when I wake up, I often prefer to stay beneath my warm blanket for a (rather long) while and then I am thinking of "K.", what she might be doing then and something else...
Well, yes, I am a dreamer, no matter whether sleeping or awake.

19. Dezember 2003, 02:51

So, just a brief summary about my thoughts of that movie.

I liked it very much, all in all! It is almost as good as the first part! (And the second part is not so bad at all, after I have watched it again...) Particularly the battle-scenes are again magnificent and spectacular! But also the scene while destroying the ring was quite dramatic. Well, sometimes I was wondering, what book I have read, but one could have expected this after the second part - so, it wasn't as bad this time.
Just the end was a bit a too long and too much Hollywood-sadness. But this doesn't count as much...the amazing pictures of Middle-Earth are alone worth watching it.

One will not regret to watch that movie, that trilogy!

(And the best was: not any commercial and not any break within the parts!)

16. Dezember 2003, 15:41

She is online! :-)

Unfortunately I won't have much time today, because today is the big "Lord of the Rings"-Day!!! All three parts at one day...Premiere of "The Return of the King" at midnight. It will be from 5 PM till after 3 AM tomorrow.

I just hope, the third part will be as good as the first one - I haven't liked "The Two Towers" as much. I just say "skateboarding" Legolas!!! 8-l

Well, I guess I will know this in about 14 hours! :-D

16. Dezember 2003, 03:29

Well, where to start?

First I better warn you, my life isn't as half exciting as yours! And I want to apologize for my rather limited English, but my Russian is even limited more, you can believe me! ;-)

So, what has happened yesterday and today? I woke up later the day as usual ( ;-) ). And I was remembering our last chat and recognized, that it was really true, what sad you have said me. So, I became immediately sad again... And I think, I am allowed to be sad, because this will be a big tragedy for me. Well, nevertheless, I hope, we will stay in contact, although I have my fears and worries about this :'-(

At the afternoon I watched on TV the press-conference on the capture of Saddam Hussein live from Baghdad. "We got him" :-/ the typical American "understatement". But anyway good news, although it doesn't change anything in my opinion of this injust and unnecessary war, the many casualties of innocent lives, both Iraqi and American.

At midnight I watched a real good movie - "The Portrait of a Lady" by Jane Campion with Nicole Kidman and John Malkovich. A young American woman in England of the 19th century refuses the true loves of several men, because she wants to stay independent. In Rome she meets a man and thinks, he loves her and she marries him, dont knowing, that he only wants her status, her money. So, she lives in a very unhappy marriage. Great actors! A movie worth seeing it!

Today nothing spectacular! Was at the post-office ;-) ...reached to become a member of this website, again tried to read your diary and typing these notes...

Well, that's it! Not bad for the beginning, right? ;-)

15. Dezember 2003, 23:13

First of all: I am very proud to be your FRIEND!

15. Dezember 2003, 22:49

Ok, let's begin!