8. März 2005, 23:59

International Women's Day

"Woman is the Nigger of the World", as John Lennon sang, - and I agree to that. I don't speak only of the exploited and supressed women in Africa or Asia, of the women and girls forced to prostitution and slavery.

I also think of the women in our so-called civilized Western countries. Here women still don't get the same wages for the same work, how many women are in high positions in politics and industry?!

And most of the women still have to work more in household and for the children. There are still too many men, who treat their wives and other women as servants. They don't ask for the needs and wishes of the wife, they only think of their own pleasures.

I think, it isn't as easy to be a woman in our world.

7. März 2005, 23:59

I was at the doctor again, but she said, my heart is pretty ok...so, there must be another reason for my heartaches...

2. März 2005, 21:40

Of course, I also watched the this year's Oscar-Ceremony, and of course, I want again to tell my thoughts about it to my dedicated reader(s) here.

Because of my heavy throat soar and the aches I couldn't fall asleep anyway, but this year the competition promissed to be a bit more exciting than last year, as "The Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King" won everything. Because this year there wasn't such a big favorit.

I just hoped, that Leonardo DiCaprio wouldn't be awarded, because I don't like him very much, and I think, he isn't such a good actor. Even when he plays an adult man he always looks like a too cute boy. But, fortunately, this hasn't happened - Jamie fooxx won for "Ray". I don't know, why such a brilliant director like Martin Scorsese made so many movies with DiCaprio. After "Gangs of New York" and "Aviator", he again is said to be working with him.

Well, at the beginning, it really looks like "Aviator" would be the big winner of the night, because it won everything, which it was nominated for - but, fortunately, this ended fast.

The movie, which I liked most the last year, "Closer", doesn't got anything. It was just nominated in two categories, but, obviously, the American voters don't like movies, where is so clear and open spoken about sexuality. So Cate Blanchett in "Aviator" was better than Natalie Portman, and Morgan Freeman better in "Million Dollar Baby" than Clive Owen?

The host of the show this year was Chris Rock, and I haven't liked him at all. I really prefer the last year's singing, dancing and entertaining Billy Crystal than this difficult to understand, permanently talking black man. And I don't like his jokes, always about black and white people. He really got on my nerves!

So, "Phantom of the Opera" was surprisingly often nominated in several categories, but hasn't won anything, too. But Andrew Lloyd Webber himself played a song on the piano, which was sung by Beyonce. But that song was rather boring. No wonder, that it hasn't won. I better like "Let me be your shelter..."

And one last thing, I vote Ziyi Zhang for the most attractive woman of the show this year!

28. Februar 2005, 19:48

Do you know, what love is?! Well, I don't know at all.

Is it love, when you cry for someone, because you feel, that you have lost her...I mean not silently just inside yourself, but real crying with real teardrops!? Or is it love, when you miss someone already after some minutes, she left you. When you have to think of her many times and much time every day? Is it possible to love someone, who you just see in reality once a year?!

Well, I was thinking, that this is not possible, but now I am not so sure anymore. Well, I have never felt such feeling before, and I was surprised of myself, when it happened. And actually, I am glad, as it is - that she is in love to somebody else, who is much, much more the right one than me.

I always tried not to fall in love, because I knew, this love would be simply impossible, would just lead to pains and tears. And now this has happened without I have noticed and intended it?!

Well, I don't know, I don't know - it is a rather strange thing, this thing called love...

25. Februar 2005, 15:22

If you might miss me too much over the next three days, then just click -->here<--.

24. Februar 2005, 18:33

I am feeling today really sick. I have a throat soar (bolit gorlo) and a cold always starts like this. Maybe, it was really too cold for me in Riga(?)...

I still hope, I can prevent it, because tomorrow I accompany my brother-in-law's family to spend the weekend at my parents.

23. Februar 2005, 02:53

"So, stupid dumb boy, why are you crying?!
Now, as everything went wrong, you are realizing, what you have lost, stupid dumb boy?! But it was your own fault, stupid dumb boy! You couldn't be satisfied with what you had, stupid dumb boy?! But you were enjoying the chats, too, stupid, dumb boy! You always tried to reach the dove on the roof and didn't recognize what you already had with the sparrow in your hand, stupid dumb boy! Now you haven't anything, of course, stupid dumb boy! Haven't you learnt enough in life so far, that this always failed, stupid dumb boy!?
Now you say, you would like to set back the time to make it better, stupid dumb boy?! But you know, this is impossible - what had happened had happened, stupid dumb boy! Of course, nobody is believing you anymore, when you say, you could behave better now, stupid dumb boy!
You say, you just didn't want to miss any chance again, stupid dumb boy?! What a bad excuse! You have seen and accepted, that she is in love to someone else, stupid dumb boy! Why then all those stupid questions and askings, stupid dumb boy?! You were always so proud, that you could control your animal instincts?! How ridicolous, stupid dumb boy!
Who do you think, you are - George Clooney?! How could you only think, that you might be as attractive to someone, stupid dumb boy!? Hey, just look at you - I only can see a stupid dumb boy! You think, you are so smart, stupid dumb boy? Well, why then you have switched off your brain and have thought only with your cock, stupid dumb boy?! Ha, now you condemn that thing between your legs?! But now it is too late, stupid dumb boy! You had known better before you was asking all this, and expecting such impossible things, stupid dumb boy! If you were smart, then you had known, that someone isn't so free to talk about sexuality as open as you, stupid dumb boy! Now you cannot complain about what had happened, stupid dumb boy!
It seems, you are only good in one thing - in seeking and finding unhapiness! Congratulations, you have found it again, stupid dumb boy!"

22. Februar 2005, 23:11

From today on never without!

13. Februar 2005, 02:42

I watched tonight a movie of the competion of the Berlin Film Festival, "Berlinale".

I enjoyed it very much!

Anyway...Today was almost a perfect day! :-)

12. Februar 2005, 14:03

"It's a Beautiful Day...!"

I am a very happy person this morning. It seems so, that I will go to the U2-concert at the Olympic Stadium in Berlin on July, 7th! Yippee!

Very unusually, I got up at 7 am and then I tried to book a ticket for that show over the internet. And I got one!!! After some more minutes, that category, I wanted, was already sold out and after some more minutes the whole booking system in internet has crashed.

Now I cannot await, till I will have the real ticket in hands. It will be send by mail within the next three weeks. I will be sure only then!