6. Januar 2005, 21:40

It was rather boring, so I thought, I could again go to cinema. Also because there are now and next so many interesting movies to watch.

I watched the movie "Birth". To say it first: It wasn't so good. It is about a real strange story, maybe a bit too absurd. A ten year old boy pretends to be a reborn husband of a wife and this woman then begins tofall in love with him, because she thinks, that boy is real her reborn beloved husband.

Actually, I don't like all this reborn- and reincarnation-stuff, as well as movies about angels, god and life after death, when it is meant serious with it. Fortunately, this movie doesn't pretend, that there is reincarnation, but nevertheless it couldn't help this movie to become real good, in my opinion - although there were so many good actors in it.

First of all, of course, Nicole Kidman, who was really gorgeous in this film. With short hair but maybe almost too slim. But I think, the director of that movie liked her, too, because there were a lot of long closeups at her face in the movie. But I don't understand, why she has such an ugly and aweful partner?! This is really not very believable.

Anyway, I think, it's more a movie, how difficult it is for a partner, when the other one surprisingly dies and how he/she misses him/her.

But all in all you haven't missed something, when you haven't watched that movie.

5. Januar 2005, 21:06

I spent New Year's Eve and Day in my hometown at my parents together with the family of my sister, and I am glad I have done it, because it was very funny, enjoying and pleasant days.

On New Year's Eve after we have watched "Dinner for One", an English half hour comedy sketch on TV, which is very popular in Germany to watch every New Year's Day, we all together had a big dinner. traditionally we have then fish to eat and so this year, too. Of course, I have eaten again too much so I got a bit stomach aches.

After it, we spent the time till midnight with playing funny games, for example a game called "Pictionary", where somebody has to draw on a sheet of paper a term, and somebody else or all has to guess, what term this might be. This was really not easy, but what should I say. I together with my Niece in a team of course won! :-)) Furthermore we were laughing, singing, dancing and trying to stand on the head.

At midnight we all cheered with a glas of champaign (not me and the kids of course) and embrace one eachother wishing a happy new year. After a little selfmade fireworks outside we continued playing, laughing and so on...

31. Dezember 2004, 23:59

29. Dezember 2004, 19:41

I had a short trip to the park of the Palace Charlottenburg and a walk through that park. But it was so cold and misty that I hurried to return home again. Brrrr!

Afterwards I went from shopping center to shopping center, thus I spent much time in going on the underground. But I haven't found anything interesting and reasonably priced.

Tomorrow morning I am going to my hometown to spend New Year's Eve and Day with the family.

27. Dezember 2004, 20:08

About Christmas

Christmas is for single persons one of the most horrible time of the year, right ahead of New Year's Eve.

This year's Christmas Eve I spent as always home alone. As usual I had at the evening a nice walk through the quiet and empty dark streets of my neighbourhood. This time I wasn't as lucky as to see a like a Santa Clause disguised student hurrying to the next meeting. But I saw a car corso of a wedding. And again I watched to the bright lighted windows, imaging what might happen now behind these windows and curtains.

Back home and after a short dinner I was suffering on the bad taste TV-programme as every year - Christmas Carols, Christian Christmas Stories or second class action movies.

Well, I could had gone to my parents again, but I didn't want, also because I wanted to punish myself, that I again wasn't able to find a nice girlfriend this year, who I could spend this time together with. So, at night I was a bit glad, that I again have reached to pass this day.

Fortunately I was invited from my sister to spend the First Christmas Day with her family. So, I not only had a delicious meal, but we were spending the time with good talks and conversation and playing a funny games alltogether.

The Second Christmas Day (in Germany there are two public holidays after Christmas Eve) I was again home. But I had enough to do in preparing a good dinner for myself.


It looks like as this year New Year's Eve won't become as bad for me, because I likely will accompany my sister's family to our parents to spend it together.

23. Dezember 2004, 19:20

Well, actually, I've intended to close this diary after one long year in these days.

There are two main reasons for it.

1. I started this diary, because I wanted to show somebody, that my little ordinary life isnt as boring as it might has seemed. I am absolutely NOT sitting all day in front of the computer! I feel, I have proofed it with all the information in this diary.

2. The last days, weeks and months I felt a bit lonely here. I thought, I am going slightly mad, because I felt, that I already speak with myself like an old person.

11. Dezember 2004, 04:11

About the first time

Maybe, this subject might be a bit over-estimated, it might be seen a bit too important - I don't know quite exactly.

So, but if it is so important to most people, as it seems, why those people don't be more careful when, at which age, at which occasion and whom they loose their virginity with?

As far as I have learnt, many (and maybe the most) people really don't like to remember their first times, because mostly they have done it with partners, they didn't have loved, and they haven't enjoyed it at all. Maybe, they have done it, because of some group pressure, that they just haven't wanted to be the last of the clique, who has done it, and therefore seen as "loosers". How stupid!

I bet, many people regret later, they haven't waited for the partner, they love for real. I am wondering particularly, why girls don't show more restrain in this regard, because they have to loose even more.

Some other questions: Is a man/boy or woman/girl, who haven't done it so far (and so early), a worse man? And is an orgasm through sexual intercourse so much different than an orgasm through masturbation?

28. November 2004, 18:46

One year ago...

24. November 2004, 20:08

I have read another book again. "Der Zementgarten" ("The Cement Garden") by Ian McEwan.

What should I say, - well, it was really good, although it was a rather odd story. It was a story about an adolescent boy and his relation to his parents and brother and sisters, what happened in the family, when first the father died and shortly after the mother, too. And it also was the story about the love of that boy to his older sister.

I think, I want to and will read more by this author.

17. November 2004, 01:00

Okay, long ago promised, here they are: "My All Time Favorites" in music!

(It is recommended to have installed QuickTime. Only one title per group or singer should have been included, so it might be only one title of one group a favorite, whereas many other titles of another group or musician might be close to be a favorite. And it shouldn't be more titles than two audio-cds could contain.)